some days better then others. I hate certain days. where it’s so bad. Where no one can sleep in. where you feel how bad it is from the moment you wake up. the constant need for power. to have control over everyone. this person doesn’t have it. not even over themself. it sickens me. it makes me so angry. yet I feel so much guilt that I can’t do anything. not for them. just for me. I feel like this is the most selfish thing I can say. there are days I don’t know if I keep at this. one day it wont be this way. one day I wont feel this way. that is because i’ll be long gone. where I wont be such a coward and finally courageous enough to leave.
The moment I died, came back to life, died again, was cremated, put back together and come back to life, and slayed a few more times.
Let Me Down - Boston, MA
(via fuckyeahkellyclarkson)
